"There’s a story circulating about a guy who accidentally zapped his manly bits with bear spray. . . . [which] does nicely [to] open the topic of self-imposed suffering and canoe trips."
paddlingmag.com
This is your opportunity to confess suffering, trials and tribulations you've endured on canoe trips, which only later, perhaps, you interpreted as a form of joy, mental clarity or spiritual connection.

Hurts So Good: Why The Trials And Tribulations Of Hard Trips Are So Good For The Soul
Wise men and women of every tradition claim suffering can bestow clarity.

This is your opportunity to confess suffering, trials and tribulations you've endured on canoe trips, which only later, perhaps, you interpreted as a form of joy, mental clarity or spiritual connection.