I haven't done much solo paddling, but I do most of my hiking solo, and occasionally backcountry ski solo. Most of my hikes include significant amounts of bushwhacking and I navigate solely by map, compass, with the occasional assistance an analog altimeter. I enjoy hiking with one or two other friends, but there is something special about being offtrail, in the wild, alone, with only simple tools and your own brain and body. Each bushwhack starts with a little bit of hesitancy or apprehension, akin to jumping off the high-dive, but almost immediately, the focus shifts to navigation, reading the woods and the terrain, and being in the present. I am in my comfort zone.
When I arrive at the summit or an outcrop or take a break far from a trail, I soak up the magical feeling of being alone in a large, wild area, and revel in it. Every once and while I find that I don't know where I am within a given area. What most people would call "being lost." There can be a flash of panic or the beginning creep of fear. When this happens, I stop and slow down. I ask myself, with the tools that I have, including my senses, what do I know? How are my resources of strength and energy, temperature regulation, water, and food? What do I need to do, which direction do I need to go, to figure out where I am? I work through these questions methodically, slowly, and logically. I go through them again, trying to make sure that I am making the most logical assessments and decisions. Then I put my plan into action, making adjustments with new information as needed. I figure out where I am.
Perhaps not surprisingly, I have found that when these situations happen, they are easier for me to resolve when I am solo and don't have to deal with the anxiety of another person. In the first instance, my trip partner was a close, good friend, and experienced hiker, but they had only done a bushwhack hike once before, also with me. After trying to work through the problem in tandem with them, and having a hard time focusing well enough to anylize our situation, told them that I need a couple of minutes of quiet to work out the problem on my own. Once I had done so, I proposed my solution to my friend, they assented, and we got back on course.
The most recent time was with another close friend and the person I hike with most—frequently offf-trail—when not solo. This is a person who has climbed Denali, paddled the Yukon with a friend pre-internet, backpacked and hiked in Uganda with just his required guide shortly after the deposal of Idi Amin, and solo hiked and bushwhacked all over the lower 48. And yet this summer, when we found ourselves unsure of our location on a bushwhack late in the afternoon, he was stuck in "mini-freekout mode"—very mini—and wasn't able to contribute to the conversation of what our next step would be. In hindsight, I wonder if tiredness and hunger contributed to this reaction. Fortunately it was a pretty easy situation to resolve.
In terms of comfort in the night/darkness, it is natural—yes?—for humans to be aphrensive in the night, as we are a diurnal species. However, in my experience, the more time you spend outside at night, the more comfortable it becomes. LED headlamps, especially the Petzl Tikka, were a game changer. With the advent of lightweight, long-lasting headlamps, suddenly darkness was no longer a limiting factor. Still on the trail when darkness falls? No problem? Want to get a jump on a trip with a late-night start after work or a predawn start? Easy. The devlopment of halogen lights with relatively compact, NiMH rechargeable batteries, followed by HID technology, Li-ion batteries, and later, high-powered LEDs, further opened up the night to mountainbiking, longer-distance cycling, and backcountry skiing.
One of my favorite experiences in the outdoors was a night-time, solo backcountry backcountry ski in the middle of a snow storm. At the turnaround, high on the mountain, I poured myself a cup of tea, heavily laden with Vermont Maple syrup, and turned off my headlamp. I enjoyed my tea amidst the swirling snow all around, howling wind, and dark solitude, knowing that I was almost surely the only human soul on the mountain.